Miscarriage stories of loss, hope and help. It's always devastating to experience a loss. It can cause you to feel alone, isolated. There's no 'right' way to feel - a range of reactions are possible and normal. In addition to the grief you may feel, your body will be undergoing some profound hormonal adjustments, which may make you feel very emotionally volatile. If you have had a miscarriage, take the time to understand better why these occur and why it is not your fault.
Sunday, April 02, 2006
Conflicting emotions
Then having my cycle go wacky, and my bloodwork numbers go wacky along with the cycle, I try to accept that it's over, and that I should move on. Then I go in for my recurrent miscarriage testing follow-up appointment. The doubting RE dr does more bloodwork, and says, you just ovulated! Yep, two more weeks of waiting...
Finally I get my period, go in for MORE bloodwork, and get perfect results - you would think by my results I was 10 years younger! FSH - 9.8, E2 - 27.52, LH - 3.7, P4 - 0.94. Doubting RE dr says this is a good cycle, and you will ovulate soon!
It just seems, every time I am ready to give up, to finally give in and accept this crazy ride is over, another carrot is dangled in front of me. Just maybe, just maybe, one more time...
So, for at least one more cycle, I won't give up yet...
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Sometimes I wonder how I'll get through all of the waiting. Sending positive thoughts your way!
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